Slightly Askew

I went to see my doctor and had a complete physical and funny how you might think that things are just slightly askew and then you find out that things are seriously fucked up...

So I go to the doctor for my physical and I knew I had a few things wrong, one of those being the fact that I am overweight...I think I have protected myself for a long time by saying that I am overweight when really I am obese. Not morbidly obese, but obese none the less...I knew I had a weight problem...One can't gain over 100 pounds over a few years and not know that...But what I might not know is that I possibly have a eating disorder (over eating/comfort eating) and that all of my cholestoral numbers are seriously out of wack...And that all of the other very minor health issues (never serious enough to warrant going to the doctor for just that issue) that I have been having over the past year are probably due to my being overweight (aka obese). So I was told, probably what I deep down needed to hear, that if I don't get my weight under control, and get my eating habits under control, and start exercising, I can get very sick...

So here and now, I am making a promise to myself:

I promise to do what it takes to get my shit together, and take care of my body, and take care of myself mentally and emotionally as well.

How I will do this, I am not 100% sure of yet...I wil lhave to figure that out...but I plan on using this blog as one way of keeping track of this process. It will help me be more accountable for myself, and maybe, just maybe, someone else will find this blog and take something positive from it.


Update - 09/02/04
So, some things that have come out of my seeing the doctor for a physical: I had to have an upper gi (very disgusting and would not wish it upon anybody, except for maybe our selected resident, dubya). This brought forward fun things let me to tell you...Things like acid reflux (duh, I knew I had that), an ulcer and a hernia...So now I have to go have an endoscopy (not nearly as bad as the upper gi because I will have sedation for this one). They are also testing me for all sorts of other things...FUN!

I have also started working with a nutritionist. This is by far one of the best things that I could have done for myself. Even though I know pretty much what I should and shouldn’t eat, it is nice to have someone that can help me figure out the right balance of what I need to/should eat.

So they gave me Nexium (the little purple pill) to fix my acid reflux, which it has... And I have my new fancy/schmancy low-fat/cholesterol diet to lower my cholesterol and lose weight (of which I am writing down everything that I eat – my idea, not the nutritionist’s). I am going to do all of my measurements, and weigh in, and take before pictures and all that jazz so that I can start really logging this process... I’m going to track it here on my blog...